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21 November 2010

I am with Christ forever - every moment on His narrow path


T A L M A C H
so much and simple

I am with Christ forever -
every moment on His narrow path


And my home is on this narrow countryside Road of Christ -
at 8, November - some Authorities and Kingdoms [Dominions]
would have it changed - to 21, November - but our home is
still the very same! Call us at our house number 8[OS]/21[NS].

Those Authorities and Kingdoms [Dominions] have been demoted -
rest assured! - and authorities and kingdoms are they no more! -
For I have the Powers - and the Will of the Living Word!

And the Thrones are being submerged - lest they be defiled by
Antichrist, who knows all lies.

                                                                      Archangel Michael






The Eighth Day (of indiction)


The world was created in Six Days
and the Seventh Day was attributed to honor the Creator.
And so the cycle started running in time...
It is called Genesis, week, calendar...

And on the Eighth Day
there came
the hope for salvation,
the beginning of our salvation was born on the Eighth Day of the indiction
(and through Her – the Most Holy Theotokos, Ever Virgin Miriam –
coming to this world was also our Savior),
subsequently (probably) still on that Eighth day
there will come our very salvation...

(For early Christian Fathers the spiritual "Eighth Day"
is Christ's resurrection) or the end of the world...

But is our salvation an end –
[Yes, of course - in English -
yes, this is our ultimate objective!]

or our salvation is an end of the world, of this world?!?




       "Chapter 16. The spiritual temple of God

       Moreover, I will also tell you concerning the temple, how the wretched [Jews], wandering in error, trusted not in God Himself, but in the temple, as being the house of God. For almost after the manner of the Gentiles they worshipped Him in the temple. But learn how the Lord speaks, when abolishing it: "Who has meted out heaven with a span, and the earth with his palm? Have not I?" Isaiah 40:12 "Thus says the Lord, Heaven is My throne, and the earth My footstool: what kind of house will you build to Me, or what is the place of My rest?" Isaiah 66:1 You perceive that their hope is vain. Moreover, He again says, "Behold, they who have cast down this temple, even they shall build it up again." It has so happened. For through their going to war, it was destroyed by their enemies; and now: they, as the servants of their enemies, shall rebuild it. Again, it was revealed that the city and the temple and the people of Israel were to be given up. For the Scripture says, "And it shall come to pass in the last days, that the Lord will deliver up the sheep of His pasture, and their sheep-fold and tower, to destruction." And it so happened as the Lord had spoken. Let us inquire, then, if there still is a temple of God. There is— where He himself declared He would make and finish it. For it is written, "And it shall come to pass, when the week is completed, the temple of God shall be built in glory in the name of the Lord." Daniel 9:24-27; Haggai 2:10 I find, therefore, that a temple does exist. Learn, then, how it shall be built in the name of the Lord. Before we believed in God, the habitation of our heart was corrupt and weak, as being indeed like a temple made with hands. For it was full of idolatry, and was a habitation of demons, through our doing such things as were opposed to [the will of] God. But it shall be built, you observe, in the name of the Lord, in order that the temple of the Lord may be built in glory. How? Learn [as follows]. Having received the forgiveness of sins, and placed our trust in the name of the Lord, we have become new creatures, formed again from the beginning. Wherefore in our habitation God truly dwells in us. How? His word of faith; His calling of promise; the wisdom of the statutes; the commands of the doctrine; He himself prophesying in us; He himself dwelling in us; opening to us who were enslaved by death the doors of the temple, that is, the mouth; and by giving us repentance introduced us into the incorruptible temple. He then, who wishes to be saved, looks not to man, but to Him who dwells in him, and speaks in him, amazed at never having either heard him utter such words with his mouth, nor himself having ever desired to hear them. This is the spiritual temple built for the Lord."




Homily XI by St. John of Kronstadt
On the Day of St. Archistratigue Michael and the Synaxis of all Heavenly Bodiless Powers


November 8, 1907

       We keep praising Thee, O Christ, Who has most wisely joined the sky with the earth and has made one Church of angels and men. (Stichira for small vespers).
       We celebrate, dear brethren, the bright holiday of the thunder-like Archangel Michael and the other heavenly bodiless powers.
       The history of the Church’s establishing of this holiday is long and we will not tell it now; let those wishing to know it read about it in the church book "Lives of the Saints" [Chetyi-Minhei], and now let us talk about the spiritual countless world of angels, about their features, about their order of lines and about the immeasurable God’s sweetness, Who has associated us, Orthodox Christians, with this angelic Synaxis and Who has constituted one Church out of the angels and men, and then about our obligation to honor them according to dignity and to imitate them in force, as the future fellow citizens of ours in the heavenly fatherland; about which we pray to the Lord God, our common Creator.
       St. Cyril of Alexandria says (see Macarius’s Theology on Angels): if our earth, and it – as just one point in-between the worlds – bears on it such a countless number of people and all [kinds of] beings, then [imagine] how many times more inhabitants abide in the immaterial heaven, so great and beyond limits [comprehension] for any mind?
       Angels have a spiritual, immaterial, subtle, immortal nature – free from any mortality, but a limited one – not like that of the Lord Himself, the Spirit – everywhere consubstantial and one, without beginning and all-pervading. He brought Angels out of non-being into being, sanctified them by His word, and for [the purpose of] intransigence against evil He strengthened them up by the Holy Spirit in a non-falling manner (i.e. they can no longer fall into sin), their nature is full of the wonderful, unquenchable light, holiness, goodness, beauty, [utter] wisdom, power, immortality, ardent love for the Creator and for each other and for men, about whose salvation they rejoice and are [but] willing to have them as their eternal fellow citizens in the country of eternal light and immortality, of peace and joy. St. Dionysius the Areopagite, a disciple of Apostle Paul, whom the Holy Spirit raised up [in admiration] to the third sky, heard from Him the mysterious teaching on the world of angels, [he] wrote it down and handed it to the Church (Dionysius the Areopagite on the Church Hierarchy).
       The Angelic world divides into nine orders, and these – each [divides] into three lines. The first and brightest-seen angels (Michael and Gabriel) as a bright illumination of the Trinity without beginning, wait immediately on the flaming throne of God, being enlightened by His unapproachable light, and handing down enlightenment and knowledge of God’s mysteries to the their lower lines; and the lower lines are being controlled in a most peaceful manner by the higher [ones]. Such heavenly citizenship, such most peaceful, holy, most bright, gracious Synaxis of the celestial residents is called Heavenly Hierarchy, in line with the earthly hierarchy or the hierarchy of the Orthodox Church.
       Let us marvel at the all-good God and at [His] most wise providence, at His boundless goodness, intending us to our co-interning and bliss without end – along with Angels – in the future fatherland of ours and constituting one Church of Angels – most bright and incorruptible, and men chosen and worthy. What indescribable by any language bliss awaits the faithful Christians, if through the end they abide in faithfulness to their Christian calling! In order for us to qualify for eternal cohabitation and blissful life together with the angels in heaven, we must try and honor them, imitate their holiness, humility, love and wholehearted devotion to God, elevation of thoughts, abstinence, prayer and fasting, mercy and compassion to each other, hot mutual love.
       The holy God-inspired audiences of God’s mysteries and of the angelic visions, the prophets and evangelists have seen how the angels in mysterious visions face each other in a friendly manner and praise consortingly the Holy Trinity. This teaches us, too, to treat each other with warm love and to live in one mind, ardently serving our common-for-all Creator.
       The glory of the infinite goodness of God, Who has prepared eternal kingdom for us, a kingdom of unquenchable light, peace and unfailing bliss, together with the countless Synaxis of Angels.
       Let us make use of the little time here towards prosperity in Christian virtues, so we may inherit this everlasting bliss, which may the Lord grant us all by grace, through His generosity and love for men, through the intercession of the Most Pure Mother of God and through the waiting [intercession] of the honest bodiless heavenly powers, especially the radiant thunder-like Michael and Gabriel, and the holy Angels – our guardians. Amen!




Vision of Joseph Munoz

       A number or a day, or the year...? What prompted me to publish this? - I cannot understand. Perhaps Vladyka Philaret’s date of demise? Indeed, it has been 25 years now.

       …

       "Let me remind you of a portentous vision given to Joseph in the night of 20th against the 21st November 1985 – just a few hours before Metropolitan Philaret died.
       You were the first person whom Joseph told about this vision of his shortly after the news came of the Metropolitan Philaret’s demise.
       On November 24th (the Iberon icon’s feast day) 1985 Metropolitan Philaret was buried. Immediately thereafter Joseph came to us in Washington for a few days [stay] and on the very first evening, under the fresh impression of the vision he told us about it in details. This was also attended by Fr. Theodore Shevtsov.
       In the words of Joseph on the night of November 20th he felt very tired and went to bed. The holy Icon hanged on the wall opposite his bed – so that when lying he could gaze at it. Soon after he lied down, the icon-lamp hanging in front of the icon went out. He lit it up again but it went out for the second time. Then Joseph changed the oil, the wick, washed the lamp-glass, and filled it up again. But soon the lamp went out for a third time... This upset him, because he felt that the Mother of God intimately suggested to him that something significant was going to happen, since shortly before that the lamp in front of the Iberon Icon went out on three occasions – before the terrible earthquake in Mexico and before the eruption of the volcano in Colombia, in result to which thousands were killed. Joseph stood up for prayer. Under the icon, by the wall there was a [small] bench. Joseph knelt down to his knees, leaned against the bench and began praying. During the prayer he fell asleep.
       In the dream, a panoramic view opened to him – very much like a huge wide screen – and he was presented one such vision. Wooded nature with rocky soil. On the trail he saw – standing on his knees with a haggard face – Metropolitan Philaret. On the back of the Vladyka and on his right shoulder there lay a large heavy cross. The cross look was terrible – iron and cold (it lacked any life-giving heat, which gently emanates out of a wooden cross), it was an ugly color – dark green-brownish. Metropolitan Philaret was falling under the weight of the cross and was unable to budge. But, suddenly, unexpectedly, Metropolitan Philaret bent forward and with a decisive movement from right to left he dropped the cross onto the ground (the motion was strange as the Metropolitan could simply drop his right shoulder down and the cross would slide to the ground).
       Once the cross touched the ground, the Metropolitan disappeared. Joseph was seized with fear by what he had seen and out of horror he hid his face with his hands. When he finally dropped his hands before another picture appeared to him. He saw a land that has turned into a desert due to a terrible disaster. Instead of Metropolitan Philaret – standing on his knees was Vladyka Vitaliy with that same cross on his back, only the cross was more terrible, darker and heavier. Although with enormous labors, but still somehow the Vladyka budged little by little on.
       In a last, third part, of the vision Joseph saw a cross – purely black in color in that same desert, and crucified on it was – in full vestment, with miter – Bishop Vitaliy...”.

       …

       A few hours after this vision the world learned of the repose of Metropolitan Philaret... Maybe this vision – sent to Joseph – was the most significant of all signs of the Iberon Myrrh-streaming Icon. Maybe by this prophetic vision the Mother of God warns us about what might happen – lest it happens. Maybe we are currently witnessing the last part of the/a vision. God forbid! When at your insistence Joseph told You about his vision, tears came into Your eyes and You told him that the first part of the vision was clear, but the next [one] You did not want to interprete and preferred not to think about [it]... "(an excerpt from a letter bt Fr. N. to M. V.)

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ПРЕВОД ОТ АНГЛИЙСКИ


Аз съм с Христа завинаги -
и всеки миг съм на тесния Му път

И моят дом е на тесния селски Път Христов - на
ноември, № 8 - някои Власти и Царства (Господства) пожелаха
да се промени - на ноември, № 21 - но домът ни си е все така
същият! Посетете ни на номер 8 [ст.ст.] / 21[н.ст.].

Онези Власти и Царства (Господства) бидоха наказани и понижени -
бъдете спокойни! - и вече власти и царства не са! -
Защото имам Сили - и Волята на Живото Слово!

А Престолите биват потопявани - да не би да бъдат омърсени от
антихриста, който познава всички лъжи.

                                                                      Архангел Михаил



= = = = = = =   КРАЙ НА ПРЕВОДА   = = = = = = =




Осмият ден (от индикта)


Светът е сътворен в Шест Дни,
а Седмият бе определен за прослава на Твореца.
И така цикълът се завъртя във времето...
Наричат го Битие, седмица, календар...

А на Осмия ден дойде
надеждата за спасение,
началото на нашето спасение се роди на Осмия ден от индикта
(а чрез нея - Пресвета Богородица, Вечната Дева Мариам -
дойде на този свят и нашият Спасител),
впоследствие (вероятно) пак на този Осми ден
ще дойде и самото наше спасение...

(За ранните християнски отци духовният "Осми Ден"
е Христовото възкресение) или краят на света...

Но край ли е нашето спасение -
[на английски - ЦЕЛ - да разбира се,
това е към което се стремим в крайна сметка!]

или нашето спасение е край на света, на този свят?!?




Видение на Йосиф Муньос

       Число или ден, или година...? Какво ме накара да публикувам това? – Не мога да разбера. Може би датата на смъртта на епископ Филарет? Все пак изминаха 25 [пълни] години.

       ...

       "Позволете ми да ви напомня за едно знаменателно видение, дадено на Йосиф в нощта на 20-ти срещу 21-ви ноември 1985 г. – [само] няколко часа преди кончината на митрополит Филарет.
       Вие бяхте първият човек, на когото Йосиф разказа за това свое видение скоро след като дойде новината за смъртта на митрополит Филарет.
       На 24 ноември (на празника на Иверската икони) 1985 г. се състоя погребанието на митр. Филарет. Веднага след това Йосиф дойде при нас във Вашингтон за няколко дни и още на първата вечер ни разказа – по свежите си впечатления от видението – подробно за него. На това присъстваше също и отец Теодор Шевцов.
       По димите на Йосиф вечерта на 20-ти ноември той почувствал голяма умора и си легнал да спи. Светата икона висяла на стената срещу леглото му – така че докато лежал той можел да се взира в нея. Скоро след като си легнал, изгаснало висящото пред иконата кандило. Той го притоплил [запалил] отново, но то изгаснало втори път. Тогава Иосиф сменил олиото, фитила, стъкълцето на кандилото, и отново го напълнил [и запалил]. Но скоро кандилото излгаснало за трети път... Това го разстроило, защото почувствал, че Божията Майка съкровено му внушава, че ще се случи нещо значително, тъй като малко преди това кандилото пред Иверската Икона изгасвало на три пъти [–] непосредствено преди страшното земетресение в Мексико и преди изригването на вулкан в Колумбия, в резултат на които загинаха хиляди хора. Йосиф застанал на молитва. Под иконата, до стената имало скамейка. Йосиф се спуснал на колене, прислонил се на скамейката и започнал молитвослов. По време на молитва заспал.
       Насъне му се открила картина-панорама, буквално един огромен широк екран, и му било представено такова видение. Гориста природа с камениста почви. На пътека той видял да стои на колене с измъчено лице митрополит Филарет. На гърба на владиката и на дясното му рамо лежал голям тежък кръст. Кръстът изглеждал страшен – железен и хладен (в него отсъствала животворящата топлина, която леко навява от дървен кръст), цветът му бил некрасив – тъмно зелено-кафеникаво. Митрополит Филарет падал под тежестта на този кръст и не можел да помръдне от мястото си. Но, изведнъж, неочаквано, митрополит Филарет се привел напред и с едно решително движение от дясно на ляво захвърлил кръста на земята (движението било странно, тъй като митрополитът можел просто да спусне дясното си рамо и кръстът би се приплъзнал на земята).
       Веднага щом кръста се докоснал до земята, митрополитът изчезнал. Йосиф бил обхванат от страх от водяното и от ужас закрил лицето си с ръце. Когато най-сетне спуснал ръце, пред себе се представила друга картина. Той видял земята, преврната в пустиня вследствие на страшно бедствие. Вместо митрополит Филарет, на колене стоял Владика Виталий със същия кръст на гърба си, но кръстът бил по-страшен, по-тъмен и тежтк. Макар и с огромен мъки, но все пак по някакъв начин Владиката се придвижвал по не много.
       В последната, трета част на видението Йосиф видял кръст с чисто черен цвят в същата пустиня, и на него бил разпнат, в пълно онлачение, с митра Владика Виталий...”.

       ...

       Няколко часа след това видение светът научил за смъртта на митрополит Филарет... Може би това видение, изпратено на Йосиф е най-значителното от всички знамения на Иверската Мироточива Икона. Може би с това пророческо видение Майката Божия ни предупреждава за това, което може да се случи, да не би то да се случи. Може би сега ставаме свидетели на последната част от видението. Боже опази! Когато на ваше настояване, Йосиф Ви разказа за своето видение, Вие се просълзихте и му казах, че първата част от видението е понятна, а следващата Вие не искате да разтълкувате и предпочитате да не мислите за нея... " (Откъс от писмо на о. Н. до М. В.)


04 August 2010

Sts. Gervase and Protase Св. Св. Гервасий и Протасий 14/27 октомври October


T A L M A C H
so much and simple

Life in Russian

КОНДАК
Явихте се като светли светилници, божествени мъченици,
и озарявате творението със светлината на чудесата,
като прогонвате дълбоката нощ на недъзите
и се молите на Христа, Единия Бог,
за всички нас.

прославени през 386 г.; светите им мощи са намерени
през месец юни от св. Амвросий Медиолански;
над мощите им в Милано е била построена
'Базилика на мъчениците' - сега "Св. Амвросий" / Сент Амброджо

"Божественото Писание нарича длъжник онзи, който е получил нещо даром от Господа
и не го дава на други, защото той като че краде от църквата , когато укрива онова, което
може да бъде полезно на останалите. Затова Давид е казал
[ПС 39:11]:
'ТВОЯТА ПРАВДА НЕ СКРИВАХ В СЪРЦЕТО СИ, ВЪЗВЕСТЯВАХ ТВОЯТА ВЯРНОСТ
И СПАСЕНИЕТО ОТ ТЕБЕ, И НЕ ЗАТАЯВАХ ТВОЯТА МИЛОСТ И ТВОЯТА ИСТИНА
ПРЕД ВЕЛИКОТО СЪБРАНИЕ.
'
И като че желаейки въздаяние за това дело, добавил:
[ПС 39:12] 'Не спирай, Господи, Твоите щедрости към мене.' "

=============================

Kontakion
You appeared as bright lamps, o, divine martyrs
and you illumine the creation with the light of miracles
by driving away the dense night of infirmities
and praying to Christ, the One God,
for us all.


Sts. Gervase and Protase
– October 14 / 27
glorified in 386 AD, their holy relics were found
in June by St. Ambrose of Mediolana
;
built above over their relics in Milan was
the 'Basilica of the martyrs' – now of St. Ambrosius / St. Ambrogio

"The Divine Scripture calls a debtor he who has received something as a gift from the Lord
and gives it not to others because he then is as if stealing from the church when hiding
what may be useful to others. Therefore David said [Ps. 40:10]:
'I have not hid Thy righteousness within my heart; I have declared
Thy faithfulness and Thy salvation: I have not concealed Thy loving kindness
and Thy truth  from the great congregation.'

And as if he wanted bestowal for this deed, he added:
[Ps. 40:11] 'Withhold not Thou Thy tender mercies from me'


Four Martyrs of Milan AND St. Cosmas
The Holy Martyrs Nazarius, Gervasius, Protasius and Celsus of Milan AND Kosmas



Apolytikion in the Fourth Tone
Thy Martyrs, O Lord, in their courageous contest for Thee received as the prize the crowns of incorruption and life from Thee, our immortal God. For since they possessed Thy strength, they cast down the tyrants and wholly destroyed the demons' strengthless presumption. O Christ God, by their prayers, save our souls, since Thou art merciful.

Apolytikion in the Fourth Tone
Let us praise the fourfold company of martyrs: Nazarius, Gervasius, Protasius and Celsus. For they preached the Trinity to all and by their contest dispelled the worship of idols. Through their prayers, O Christ God, have mercy on us all.

Kontakion in the Second Tone
In shedding the light of miracles like shining lamps, O Martyrs of God, ye make the whole creation bright, at all times dispelling the deepest night of sickness and maladies and without cease pleading with Christ, the only God, that He grant His mercy to us.

02 June 2010

Матушка Серафима


T A L M A C H
so much and simple

Една усмивка
и светът е светъл!
Една усмивка -
тегоби бледнеят!

Една усмивка -
в райско кътче -
и днес се вижда
като малко кръстче...

От 6 години
тя ни топли,
спасява ни
от страхове и вопли;

добрите трудове
благослови ни -
реколта да събираме
с туй сладко име!

"Че как ще падна!" -
я описва кратко!
И пак говори
кратко, сладко ...
19 май 2010 г.                                                  May 19, 2010
22:30 ч. (ст.ст.)                                                22:30 hr (O.S.)

Matushka Seraphima
Just one smile
and the world is bright!
Just one smile –
toils grow pale!

Just one smile –
in a paradise –
it is seen to date
as a little cross...

For 6 years now
she(it) has warmed us over,
she(it) has saved us
from fears and wails;

she(it) has been blessing
our good works –
harvest to collect
with this sweet name!

"How come I would fall?"
describes her briefly!
And she speaks to us
brief and sweet...


LET’S CHERISH THE PRECIOUS BEQUESTS OF SAINT SERAPHIM

An address by archimandrite Sergiy (Yazadjiev) after the holy liturgy on Sunday of All Saints (2004) to the nuns of the «Shroud of Most Holy Theotokos» convent, Knyazhevo, Sofia.
________________________________________
«Daughters of Jerusalem, weep not for me, but weep for yourselves, and for your children.».
(Luke. 23:28)

       With these cherished words our Lord and God Jesus Christ turned to the women who followed Him while weeping and crying for Him when He was wearing His heavy cross to Golgotha.
       Now that lying before our eyes is the coffin of our dear deceased Matushka Hegumenia Seraphima, our hearts deluge of grief. But we clearly realize that in fact we are not crying for her but we cry for ourselves – we cry, because Matushka left us unexpectedly and we are orphaned. Who will now console our grief-stricken souls? Who will heal our ulcers of the soul with her sweet speech? Who will guide us and instruct us with her wise advices? – Indeed, we seem to have remained inconsolable orphans.
       But look – even in her death our Matushka Hegumenia has begged out for us the weak a consolation from the Lord. For the Lord called her soul on the eve of the All Saints Sunday – on the day when the innumerable multitude of God’s pleasers – Martyrs, Apostles, Saints, Reverend, Silverless – triumph in heavens. It is in this general celebration of All Saints exactly that the triumphant Church in heaven was joined by a soul of the earthly, militant Church – a soul, which has worthily implemented and has fully defended the bequests of her elder – Saint Seraphim. And he, her abba in one with the entire host of the saints, has already welcomed her in the Heavenly abodes.
       I want to remind you something, which I guess no one here remembers, but I was a contemporary of that event. Matushka Hegumenia Seraphima’s father – hieropriest Andrew Lieven of blessed memory, Saint Seraphim’s most faithful assistant in Church matters from 1926 till the end of his life – secretary of his diocesan council, was also taken out of the earthly life on the All Saints’ Sunday. This happened 55 years ago, on 6/19 June 1949. His demise was also surprising to many – because only a week before, on the Holy Trinity Day, at the Russian church (in Sofia) Father Andrew had taken part in the Holy Liturgy, under Saint Seraphim, in which I was fortunate to participate, too. Days after that Father Andrew was hospitalized and on the All Saints’ Sunday he passed away. Saint Seraphim of blessed memory outlived him by only eight months and seven days.
       I'll dare also add the testimony of one righteous soul that years ago, in his Dying hours was honored to be visited and consoled [from] on high: appearing in light to it were the then late Saint Seraphim, accompanied by Father Andrew as a co-worker and participant in His heavenly glorification. Thus revealed to us was a consoling secret – spiritually akin here souls prove also akin in the afterlife and in eternity beyond the grave. There, in the heavenly abodes, interacting with Saint Seraphim are also the souls of Fr. Archimandrite Pantheleymon, Fr. Archimandrite Seraphim, 'Mat' Seraphima and other deceased sisters of ours who we mention every day in Holy Liturgy. We deeply believe that now they – all together – have welcomed the soul of Matushka Hegumenia Seraphima in the celestial spheres of the Lord, Whom she served so sacrificially and Whom she loved so selflessly.
       But the hope that we can again be worthy to be together with Matushka further obliges us and urges us and gives us wings to keep the precious Saint Seraphim’s covenants; to execute also the spiritual advices that our dear Matushka has – for over half a century – taught us, because our allegiance to everything they passed on to us – this is the way on which in these difficult times we can preserve our loyalty to the Lord. Amen.

30 March 2010

MAYBE -- a poem Archimandrite Seraphim (Alexiev)


T A L M A C H
so much and simple





MAYBE
To walk in sin
tormented and repentant,
to shudder guilty, shy,
and seized by infinite dismay,
and put up a stern face,
be righteous and brightful,
with vice well-hidden
and virtues but for show ...
To waver in uncertainty,
live in a counterfeited fake,
turning onto God,
obedient to devil;
to pledge yourself to virtues,
and be a slave to evil,
to love life dearly,
and be in grave, but living,
and your struggle to remain
forever lost to others -
it is my fate, this...
And yours, maybe!

Archimandrite Seraphim (Alexiev)

03/24/1996 - Vladimir Djambov, translator




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Предговор на преводача
към пиесата "Съмнение, притча"

(или какво има над пиесата на Джон Шанли)
Има прилепчиви определения, от които става трудно да се отърсиш. Като например „Експериментално богословие” – казано за настоящата пиеса!
Експериментално богословие” – това е евфемизъм за сатанизма.
Истината – Съмнението и тихият пристан. Мъдростта – в надежда, вяра и любов...
За Западния човек е много по-трудно да познае Истината, защото над тях има много повече пластове лъжа, а опитното познаване на Истината е за тях до голяма степен неразбираемо.
И когато някой „западняк“ седне да размишлява – честно и с много рационален ум, то той рано или късно – стига да му е останало сърце – стига до Православието.
Владимир Джамбов
11.06.2010 г.


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Preface by the translator into Bulgarian
of the play “Doubt, a parable”

(or what’s above John Shanley’s play)
There are contagious definitions, which are hard to shake off. Such as "Experimental Theology" – said about this play!
"Experimental Theology" – an euphemism for Satanism.
Truth – Doubt and quiet harbor. Wisdom – in the hope, faith, and love...
For a Western man it is much more difficult to know the truth, because above them there are many more layers of lies and to know the truth experimentally is for them something to a great degree incomprehensible.
And when a "Westerner" sits down to meditate – honestly and with a rational mind, one sooner or later – if one has heart left – eventually comes to Orthodoxy.
Vladimir Djambov
June, 11, 2010

21 January 2003

What Does It Mean To Live, To Always Go Ahead When I’ve Left Everything Behind by Vasiliy (Roslyakov)



Translated from Russian

“In the beginning
was the Word ...”

by Optyna New-martyr
Vasiliy (Roslyakov)
(+Apr 18, 1993
devoted to Fr. Raphael

I’m weeping for the first time. Who could see?
By words who could create these tears?
What does it mean to live, to always go ahead,
When I’ve left everything behind?

How can one go away from a locked door
And how not kiss its threshold now,
When all roads only lead away,
and never let one in.

I saw what I had lost forever,
Blessed are those who later would be told -
They can then choose to believe it or not
And shake off the bitter heart load.

And how about the first: I saw the light,
And darkness could not overthrow, not overcome it.
And how could I, even after hundred years,
Tell myself it only seemed to be.


For in the first place I am to blame for all
Though cry I’d have as best I can,
And not by drops, but as a waterfall,
Let all sorrow gush out of the soul to earth.

In time, though pain in me abide,
So I may never know what those tears meant,
So like a dog, grieving in the darkness,
I at the sun at least would start to rejoice.

But no, in a palm I’ll hide my face.
What a pity that I can’t foresee a thing.
Looking back over my shoulder I will see
that to ashes pride humiliated me.

No other can my sorrow understand,
It is in my soul as a lasting dry wind,
And it seems I’ll never stand up from my knees,
And cheeks in blood have wiped these tears.

Now what: he is the only who can help,
He’d uproot bitterness out of the heart,
What does it mean to live, to always go ahead -
When I’ve left everything behind?

Hieromonk Vasiliy (Roslyakov)
/ new martyr of Optyna /

12 April 1970

St. Spyridon’s Eyes Elin Pelin /writer/ 'Under The Monastic Vine' cycle

[click here for a link to the St. Spyridon's Miracle in the Cathedral in Karistos, Greece, 1930]


 



St. Spyridon’s Eyes – © Elin Pelin


             Saint Spyridon was a poor shoemaker. Crouching over his low little worktable across which his tools were scattered, and immersed in blissful reflections about God, he worked all day. His sole rest was when he sat to eat quietly and slowly his dry bread or when he lifted up his eyes to look through the little window out to the beautiful picture of God's world, which always touched him.
             White cold winter and hot golden summer brought him equal joy. In springtime, when the sun melted the snow, St. Spyridon loved to listen in to the smooth uniform noise of the droplets falling from the eaves of his shabby stall, and to look how in the opposite garden in front of the little Church lilac puts forth buds and the apple flowers up. The sweet aroma of the blossoms filled the entire small quiet street, it entered in waves the narrow stall and incited even more the youth’s soul to purity. On such days St. Spyridon was thinking with special joy and hope of heaven, and sometimes he got up the low chair and peeked through the window to look up at it.
             He was young and pretty, but flattery and praise failed to ravage his soul with sinful vanity. With exploit and repentance, he craved for praise from God alone, but reckoned himself unworthy of it, although he had no sins. His only thought was to cleanse his soul so it would blossom as the apple in front of the opposite temple and its fragrance would feed the virtues just as the white apple blossom feeds the bees.
             His spiritual beauty extended its appearance also to the mortal shell – the body. That poor young man was marvelous. His face beamed with holy purity and running across his wise forehead and merging barely visibly, were white and pink clouds as if across a dawn May sky. His blue eyes – always contemplating with joy the divine things, had a lake depth, where the reflections of all heavenly bodies quivered.
             Rich and beautiful maidens from the city passed frequently along this remote street where the shoemaker’s of the youth was, and sought a chance to see him, wanting to order festive shoes with him. This horrified the pious young man and whenever he heard cheery female speech and noise of silk dresses, he bent his pure eyes down and never raised them until outside the cheerful and quiet calmness that the small street had reigned in again.
             To avoid any temptation that might come he had placed in front of his stall’s threshold a small chest with ashes. Any woman who came to him to order stepped there and from the step’s mark the shoemaker took measure for his work. For the pure youth chased out of his soul any desire for a woman that could disturb his holy bliss, and kept his eyes [away] from the shadow of temptation and kept his hands away from contact with a body born for lust.
             Once, when St. Spyridon had stood up from the tripod stool and wanted to look out the window and delight in a little white cloud, with which some invisible little angel was playing in the heavenly azure, a gilded carriage stopped before the stall and a young Turkish woman stepped down from it and knocked on the door. Her yashmak was slightly open and St. Spyridon hurried to lower his heavenly eyes to the dusty floor, so as the beauty of temptation would not sneak through them into his soul.
             The woman opened slowly and entered. Entering together with her and standing aside in the dark and poor stall was also the nice spring day that reigned outside. St. Spyridon heard the brisk noise of the fountain, the love scrimmage of sparrows, some song of a young girl, [and] the masculine laughter of young men. That cheerful vanity of life came in together with the unknown woman and stood aside in the small stall.
             The young man bowed his head further down and did not know what to say.
             Then the woman gently, softly and imperatively told him to take measures for new shoes.
             "Step outside in the ashes in the chest. I'll take measure from your step, good lady", St. Spyridon said meekly.
             The woman laughed resonantly and nice and the pious young man thought that crowds of young people stood in front of his stall and threw inside thousands of fresh fragrant flowers. He covered his eyes with his hand and repeated his request with such humbleness that the heart of the young Turkish woman shrank.
             "No”, she said and paused. Then she added: "I want you to take the measure from my foot."
             Then St. Spyridon stood up, took the measure and without raising his eyes, approached the unknown woman. She – gathered up her longish silk dress, raised her beautiful leg and stepped on the low tripod stool. St. Spyridon gropingly wrapped the lace around the sole. At that moment the holy youth lost the thread, which linked his blissful thoughts to God and he – devoted to his work – looked up to see what the measure showed. Then one corner of his eye saw the exquisite foot, gently wrapped in a dark silk stocking. In the soul of the pious youth something tumbled. A little longer, and he would have been ruined forever. But the firmness of his faith did not leave him. Holiness, which had sustained him for so long, had strengthened his will. It rebelled against the awoken desires and St. Spyridon speedily snatched from the table the awl and with a firm hand gouged out the eye inclined to temptation. Together with the strong pain St. Spyridon felt and heard exultation of the soul saved from destruction and in an ecstasy from the blessed delight he did not take down his hand but hit harder with the awl and pricked out the other eye, too. It had no fault. But in his thirst for purity the holy youth wanted to close the windows of his soul, through which rays could pass reflected by seductive and sinful things.
             Having remained without eyes, St. Spyridon could work no more. He closed his stall and went into the woods where a big river flowed between banks overgrown with willows and osiers. Gropingly he cut rods, sat in the sun knitting baskets and gave these away in exchange for a piece of bread to the peasants who passed there on their way to the city.
             It was so quiet, calm and happy around him. He listened to the splash of little fishes that sometimes played in the river and stood long in silence by the bank. The murmur of the bees and the weak noise of the white-stemmed birches growing around filled up his relieved soul with delight. When he passed groping his way from one place to another, he prayed to God to guide his feet so he would avoid squashing ants and small insects that crawled through the grass. The forever young and new breeze, which came to birth in the morning and in the evening and died at noon, robbed the flavor of all grass-blades, flowers, and lime-trees, brought it to the blind hermit and melted his soul into pleasure.
             Amidst that strange silence St. Spyridon’s thoughts – cleansed hundredfold, went out to God and for hours on end contemplated His wise, forgiving smile.
             Only one thing troubled the holy man – the love singing of birds that filled the woods. St. Spyridon could hear how doves, turtle-doves, nightingales and all other birds sat on the boughs and their love caresses troubled him. He gathered stones and threw them at random through the forest, shushed, waved his hands and was trying to chase them away. But they continued to shout, sing, to call each other. In the saint’s mind – despite his efforts – emerging inadvertently were the pictures of their passionate indulgence and one day the young saint realized with horror that there, inside his heart, there are other eyes that he could not prick out.
             And bent down over the basket he was knitting, he was pondering and understanding that by contemplating the world with his bodily eyes, he had never before felt pain like now when he contemplated it with the eyes of his closed soul. Restlessness possessed him. Not knowing whence the reason for this cometh, he thought he had committed some sin before God, and began spending his days and nights in prayer. But day by day his spiritual peace was disappearing more and more.
             Once, placing the last braids of a basket, he was presented with the alluring picture that made him prick out his eyes. He saw clearly with the eyes of his soul the beautiful woman standing before him with skirts slightly raised under which an exquisite foot in silk stocking showed. St. Spyridon wanted in vain to expel that image – so clear and alluring, but was unable to. Wherever he turned his blind face, he saw that woman and heard her laughter. The saint cried out loud, bemoaning his lot and began calling onto God for help. In vain. The seductive image grew and conquered him. He began to see it as he had not seen it and he would not see it then when his blue eyes still shone. And so terrible desires began pushing the blood in his veins. He wanted to pray, but his mouth uttered ardent love words, which resounded in the silent woods like the cry of an owl.
             "God, why are you tormenting me! I cut off my eyes, in order to achieve You – and I'm still away from You. Teach me how to achieve You. Make a sign, Oh Lord!"
             And St. Spyridon fell down with his eyes to the ground in order to make a bow. As he rose up again and turned his head to the sky the blue nice eyes shone up anew on his young face with the depth of a lake in which all heavenly bodies reflected.